Fireworks - A damp metaphor

 

SNAP, CRACKLE, POP,

But I'm not talking about Rice Crispies™

Actually, lets add another.

BANG!

It's November, so fireworks going off and it got me thinking again (not that I ever stop).

All my bonfire nights are much the same, the multiple bonfire nights with the week of the 5th, each year, all the same.

Sat doing my own thing in my room, gaming, watching TV, crafting. It always starts the same - the evening falls, the blinds drawn. Then the noises start. And I think 'meh, whatever, I've seen fireworks before', and I'll just carry on doing my thing and pay them no mind.

snap, crackle, pop, bang

SNAP, CRACKLE, POP, BANG!

Again and again. They sound right outside my window. And so up I get, part the blinds and look.. and wait.. and wait.. and nothing.

So I think 'meh, whatever', and return to doing my thing.

Select, copy, paste. Because I go through this two or three times. And each time, all I see is a black empty night.

This is what it got me me thinking. It's like all the snippets of life I hear about, the little bits of living other people get in amongst their own mundanities. And I try to ignore them, but I can only do it for so long.

And/or

It's like the little snippets of desire and dream aching within my own soul. And I try to ignore them, but I can only do it for so long.

And when I can ignore them no longer, I look.

I LOOK AND WAIT, AND LISTEN, AND WATCH and

all I ever see is the black empty night.

So then, why not just go out to an actual firework display? Eh? Then I'll be able to enjoy them.

Well, yes, this is where the metaphor fails, much like a damp firework that the fire service advise should not be used and safely discarded!

But also, 

Go and be around all those crowds of people and noises? Jeez, just launch the firework in my face why not.

Anyway, I've struggled to write this and it's weak, as my brain is too noisy still, someone keeps letting off LIFEworks, like my dad asking me to help look for his phone which was wrapped in a fucking towel? And the washing machine is going off. Can everything just shut the fuck up please.